Yellow world!

i can’t believe what just happened today. this life sucks. my morning started really really fun and exciting and suddenly my luck flipped upside down. my first class (writing) was ok, then i had a blast with this korean mom, another student of course. after those two classes, i went straight to my third classroom as i always do. but unfortunately someone was in there. a teacher whom i barely know.

ME: where is your room? (calmly; not-happy-not-mad face)
TEACHER1: there… (pointing to next room)
ME: are you not gonna use your room? (blank face)
TEACHER1: we’re having class here (2D) because my student doesn’t want to stay in 2E because it’s smelly and hot.
ME: Okay.

then i thought everything’s fine after that short talk. eventually, somebody is also using 2E so i had to ask the other teacher (B) to transfer… then B informed me that my student won’t be coming so i offered her to use ‘na lang’ 2E. she said no, but it’s fine naman with her.

after a few minutes, TEACHER1’s student (korean girl) went out looking for me. i was so shocked when she approached me coz she looked like she wanted to punch me or something. she was blabbing and pointing her finger at me in front of some teachers and a student…obviously she was throwing a bitch fit and i was left blank. i was not afraid but rather surprised since i know i didn’t do anything that would offend her.

Student: Are you teacher Oje?

ME: Yes. Why? (confused look)

STUDENT: If you have problems with me, tell me. blah blah…

ME: Are you mad at me? (shock mode)

STUDENT: I was the one who told teacher to transfer… yaddi yadda…

ME: I definitely have no problem with you, it’s okay if you use that room… again, i have no problem with you… i’m actually so surprised… (well, shock was a better word!)

her english wasn’t that good so i can hardly understand or remember the things she was blabbing about… that confrontation was clearly out of place… in fact, it’s really a stupid act… well, i would say that it’s more of the teacher’s fault… she need not tell her student about something so unimportant… because as far as i am concerned, i wasn’t being sarcastic when i asked her about the room… i wasn’t even mad or offended if they used the room without informing me… because in the first place, that room was assigned to me and my student, so they’re not supposed to use someone’s room without prior notice or permission… i was clearly the victim, not them… and then, after the student confronted me in front of other teachers and a student… and the student shouldn’t have come in to the picture since it was a teacher to teacher thingy… i was not at all mad at her, it’s more of ‘i got irritated with the petty behavior of her teacher’…

after their class, i talked to both of them… i told them i was completely shocked about how the student acted. i didn’t know that the teacher didn’t like me asking about them using my room.even if they used the room, i won’t mind at all.it’s actually okay with me. they can use it as long as they provide me with another one to transfer to.i didn’t even ask them to transfer. in fact, i gave way. so i really see no reason why the two should be mad at me.

the teacher said i was being sarcastic when i said ‘daw’ na ‘why don’t you just use your room?’ and she got so pissed off with me. well, the fact is that i didn’t say that. i said ‘teacher, where’s your room?’ and i was polite when i asked her that. and i’m not the type who would act so mean to someone i barely know.it wasn’t my fault if she’s half deaf… as far as i can remember i was being polite.i calmly asked her, and i didn’t blame her or something.

they aren’t really my type of people, and we’re not even friendly friends. so even if they are still pissed with me, i don’t care at all. i have explained my side, and it’s up to them if they believe me or not. i was aggravated but i said sorry sincerely. i was sorry not because i admit i did wrong, but i was sorry because things happened that way. but i still think that teacher is so petty nobody loves her but her mom. she should have handled things professionally. instead, she told people about the incident and made a big deal out of things. yes she also said sorry to me, but in a really mean tone. but she will be gone for a month starting tomorrow so it’s now more of a ‘thank God i won’t see her face on Christmas’ drama.

i didn’t feel guilty about things because i know i’m a good person. that teacher and that student don’t know me so they can’t judge me like that. i am never mean.i can be sarcastic, yes, but i will never be rude to someone especially if they are my workmates or students…

things have to happen… maybe this is just one test to know if i can still face problems with poise and grace… speaking of poise and grace, i tripped on the stairs this morning…waah…another blooper… shoot, i’m counting bad lucks today! this issue, really, is nothing compared to the problems i have in my job as a sangguniang kabataan  chair. i’ve seen worse days, and i am now too immune with humiliation and misinterpretation and misunderstanding. i’ve worked with too many kinds of people since i was 15 years old. my 5 years experience in politics taught me how to face challenges and solve issues. as far as i know, we have apologized to each other and that we are OK now. i just hope people would be ‘humans’ enough to respect my being quiet about this petty issue.

i wrote this blog just so i could release the negative energy in my body. this is one way of cleansing my spirit from the dark cloud that urges me to cut a teacher and a student’s throat and to bleed them dry. okay, so that’s just a joke. hehe.